This blog post is being written a couple days later than it was supposed to be written, as well as going to be turned in late, because the busy schedule of my classes has swept me away a bit this week and honestly, I completely forgot about this assignment because of everything that was happening in my other classes. I feel super bad about letting that happen, because I remember on Wednesday seeing the Blog Post on the schedule and making a little note in my brain to remember to do that before going to bed that night. And yet, instead, I ended up completely forgetting about it once I got home after my final class. I don't make a habit of leaving things unfinished before their due date so in all honesty I'm freaking out a little bit as I write this, because I have failed in a regard that I pride myself in, timeliness and project management.
That being said, I'm trying to be kind to myself, because this week I've been having a fair amount of health struggles, to the point where even getting up to go to class feels like too much and feels too hard, and yet I've been doing it. So really, some homework not quite getting done on time is kind of understandable. But at the same time, I do not want to be seen as a problem student, or as someone who doesn't show up to class just because they're feeling a bit icky. The teachers made it abundantly clear that they think being sick is an excuse, after all. So there's no reason short of death that should keep me from going to class now. I'll make sure of that. Even if I'm late to class, I will make it there. I don't like being seen as lazy or selfish, and I especially don't want the people I look up to thinking that. On top of that, I don't want to let my group members down. So, I'm going to focus on coming to class every day no matter how I feel.
A lot of models have been completed for our project this past week or so, and so there are many models that need technical approval from me or Sam. I was busy this week getting our schedule stretched out to the second production pass, but once that was done, I've been working on getting models approved. I'm not moving as fast as I'd hoped, but I'm trying my best to get all the models approved before the people set to do their UVs are scheduled to start them on the schedule document. I'm hoping I can spend all of Monday going down the asset list and just approving as many models as possible, or at least getting them critiqued and sent back so that they can be edited to better fit our technical criteria.
I may be the one in charge of the schedule, and the one best suited for keeping track of everything, but I am not infallible, nor am I perfect. As such, I do believe that personally, I myself have fallen behind on the scheduled tasks I've set out for myself. After all, I was supposed to be working on UVs all week but I haven't touched any because I've either been working on the schedule, model approvals, or other classes. I wish I could more effectively manage my time and be more productive than I actually am. My own mind is getting in the way of my work and every time I try to stick to the work I need to get done I feel so fatigued and my brain gets so overwhelmed that I have to set everything aside for a day or so just to make sure my brain functions enough to continue the correct quality of work that I need to do. I can't believe how bad of a student I've been this past week or so. Nothing is going the way it is supposed to, my body is rebelling against me, my brain isn't managing to compartmentalize overwhelming sensations as well and so I'm getting overwhelmed more often, I'm forgetting assignments, and I'm out of motivation for the week other than motivation via extreme panic, which is exhausting. I just wish I could figure out what is wrong with me so I'll stop being such a terrible student and actually be a somewhat normal student for once.
I don't have any pictures for this post, because it'll just be more pictures of the schedule. I don't have anything else to show for my work. Which is lazy, I know. I'm sorry.